tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59458213306168116802024-03-13T22:47:51.289-04:00Best Face ForwardMary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.comBlogger89125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-10769767075407360432023-11-20T21:38:00.001-05:002023-11-20T21:40:07.347-05:00Lens<p> It’s weird when the eyesight starts to go. You have to wait and look at the menu, your eyes look all crazy when you put on the readers. But your friends are doing it and you joke and you laugh about it, and it’s all good. What do you expect, you’re 49. </p><p>And it’s also weird when your sister, much younger and many times mistaken as your daughter, tells you that 49 seems old. Maybe it is. I’m warming up to it, as it’s better than the alternative. </p><p>And today I ate cottage cheese with salt and vinegar potato chips on top and couldn’t wait to tell someone. It was magic and maybe sad, but I’m 49, I don’t care. </p><p>It’s true what they say about not giving F’s as you age, if only we could gift it to our kids a tad younger and spare them some heartache. Although, the heartache builds the character, so maybe they shouldn’t be spared? Whatever, I don’t know. </p><p>And as the wine sets in, I cannot believe I was born here, raised here, loved here and I can pass that onto my kids by the grace of community friends and family. What is happening to families in this world is unfathomable, and it’s weird that I just get to go to dinner on a Monday and Target on Tuesday and a football game on Saturday. Why do I get to do those things while so many suffer? </p><p>I've found myself asking the “why’s” a lot more and the “wtaf”s a whole lot more. And although I don’t have answers to things I pray for, or solutions to things I beg for; I have more love than I dreamed of being possible. If you are reading this, you have given me and my family that love, and I will pass it on this 49th year and all that may come. ❤️</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7W7zET5kxkNhQ3K8uL7WAgvMVC-uwHQxxfG22BTX3kI8E-uG42PMBtxIZDwzOWkKf5bfWLWkrpDXPiFVKNKGOLtmk5Yliot1YaRmOwZMUaIIyYP0yDStznl5NndR3zVVYB58jl9XyIq6nkvwdRbvAc7NQ4qZeCx1-HjlxhUTuycYw-RAuND9OVdzMUbg/s3088/IMG_1246.HEIC" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3088" data-original-width="2316" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7W7zET5kxkNhQ3K8uL7WAgvMVC-uwHQxxfG22BTX3kI8E-uG42PMBtxIZDwzOWkKf5bfWLWkrpDXPiFVKNKGOLtmk5Yliot1YaRmOwZMUaIIyYP0yDStznl5NndR3zVVYB58jl9XyIq6nkvwdRbvAc7NQ4qZeCx1-HjlxhUTuycYw-RAuND9OVdzMUbg/s320/IMG_1246.HEIC" width="240" /></a></div><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span>Yes, it's a problem, mind your business</span><br /><p></p>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-40993631773094583212023-09-27T18:16:00.002-04:002023-09-28T04:07:50.713-04:00And remember<p> Happy Birthday Adam! Remember when we woke up at 5:30 for work after coming home from the bars at 2am and put on our pant suits, well you pants, me skirt suits because it was a bank, and thats when my rage kind of first started, not even close, but sorry, this is about you. And then remember when we met up at Have a Nice Day Cafe and danced the night away? Well, if memory serves, your girlfriend was there and she tried to fight me and we got kicked out, but I knew I loved you so I stalked you and it became a bit of problem?! And remember the night before our rehearsal dinner when the mirror fell on your head from the chest of drawers (is that the right way to say it?) and sliced your head open and you and your mom went to emergency room and I knew you were scared of blood, but I told you to pull yourself together?! Just the beginning of my "wife of the year awards". And then remember when we married, bought a house, I changed jobs, and had a baby in that very first year? And then remember we had three perfect children in 5 years? But it turned out, society didn't think they were so perfect and our thirties were spent in therapies and doctors appointments for kids that maybe didn't want or need to be changed?! And remember our amazing community, friends, and families, that kept showing up over and over and do so even to this day? And remember getting into our forties and not knowing how we could continue to do this every single day? Certain experiences for the kids just started to feel too hard. And remember the desperation in my eyes that I don't think you had seen before and you took on the "I'll take care of it role", when I was ready to quit? And then there are all the gaps in time that one just won't or can't remember? But, I hope you remember that very rarely whenever I see those very small cracks in you, I will fill them. How does one get so lucky in life as to be Adam Brass? That's a joke of course, but how does one be so lucky to be loved by him? Anyway, I remember all of these things. Happy Birthday, you are so loved, and obviously, there are no gifts. </p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDU970wEFNFnMVJM7oepph8nJGKzxOqzI0Cwo6b9XgNE4R0_kEBHTK1yzlyLxmijSq5boM5mz63CQYGoI9tQdvCAgboJRdqSGVIQC0tCEAeIzjXhBXoUk2PC5M7IyQgVXQI0NDteoK2YXWtx4J4InFXQSh15T_RHUnP2Cgx9nmNjG8ZXwKvvhDoSGsIk/s3088/IMG_0461.HEIC" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2316" data-original-width="3088" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDU970wEFNFnMVJM7oepph8nJGKzxOqzI0Cwo6b9XgNE4R0_kEBHTK1yzlyLxmijSq5boM5mz63CQYGoI9tQdvCAgboJRdqSGVIQC0tCEAeIzjXhBXoUk2PC5M7IyQgVXQI0NDteoK2YXWtx4J4InFXQSh15T_RHUnP2Cgx9nmNjG8ZXwKvvhDoSGsIk/s320/IMG_0461.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><p></p>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-16144343547478964642023-09-13T17:01:00.005-04:002023-09-13T19:39:20.740-04:00The dilemma<p> It's not that I don't want to write about the kids, my experience with the kids, get the release from putting all these crazy emotions on paper. I know it would be helpful to others, especially those that care about us, have kids with special needs and selfishly, this would also help me, boost me, give me purpose, have goals outside of getting out of bed yet again. Where I am struggling is the feeling that I have to explain "what happened?" Meaning, what happened to the kids. Why are they disabled? What's wrong with them? Or worse, what did you (me) do to cause it? These are the questions that people want to know and I have no good answer for them, not only that, I don't think they are something that happened "to me" or "for me". It really has nothing to do with me. They are human beings that happened, that were born, just like everyone of us that draws a breath. And yes, they are a gift and a burden-arguably just like every other child. And in the deep recesses of my brain, I worry I caused this, it's my fault. My fault for what? To help create the most genuine, wonderful, kind beings to walk amongst us. Am I so arrogant that I usurped God's creation. It was me, not her? But again, then that goes back to the thought, the fear, that awful part of me, that believes something is inherently wrong with them. That I want them changed, different, more like your kids? Do I? This is the reason I am struggling to explore my deeper feelings and why I just let people see where I am just below the surface, but only there. What if deeper is dark and ugly and ungrateful and wishes that John and Elizabeth were "healthy" and played sports, and got B's,(sorry, what, oh yeah, A's) and went to college? What if I am mean and judgmental and want a new life, a fair life, an easy life? What if I am too tired one day to keep doing this because it will never ever change, only get harder? What if, what if, what if? So you see, these are topics that are kind of tricky to tackle when you are in the trenches with children/young adults that never grow up. </p><p>Also, I'm struggling with the 'best mom" comments. I am not even close to the most average mom. Please don't comment that I am. I love and protect and care for and change and rinse and repeat and you would do it and don't say you wouldn't. I don't advocate like some, I don't volunteer like many, I gave this writing thing a go and its been yet another another epic fail. I am trying to keep everyone alive and get through the days, knowingly, I have zero control even over that. Yes, nice encouraging words feel good, but also I don't believe them to be true so I'm surely a fraud. It's like the "imposter syndrome" I keep reading about. People think I'm good, but I'm not, and if they knew me, the "real" me, they'd know. Know what, who knows? Crazy Mary holds a special and big part of my neurotic brain. </p><p>We say we only want our children to be happy. Well, that's a laughable lie. Because if that were true, I would be content forever. I arguably have the happiest children around, but we all know that just isn't the case. We want them to be accepted by their peers, safe, cute, liked, have a "gift" or a "passion" that will make us and others proud. We know now that they just want to be heard and seen for <i>exactly</i> <i>who they are</i>, but we are so wrapped up in what we think we want for them, we can't see the forrest for the trees. Is that the analogy? I don't know. Anyway, those are the parts of myself I don't want to look at, explore, admit. Are those the things I wanted when I became their mother? Are those the things I still want, but will never have? Have I dealt with feeling of loss of a child that "might have been"? What kind of monster asks these questions? </p><p>It's a lot. That's all the admitting I can do for today. Are you really sure we want to hear more and am I capable of giving it?</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJdB-ztz39eSdl0XEXlCw5Gt0_KMLdxEdx834IbrqHAwObOFxPDgN5Gz1Kir7HliVLAku1C_KJD0LKZJ4ptl2x-mcv0mAXEBfD1DRpRAVc1AknaEkNFU6NG4TPyCzNiU2_-WeIwjiGr9hG5us2zWg8FLQS-UjGtJigxHiEwns6QDnWYgscmWJsl5bHtUc/s4032/IMG_2188.HEIC" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJdB-ztz39eSdl0XEXlCw5Gt0_KMLdxEdx834IbrqHAwObOFxPDgN5Gz1Kir7HliVLAku1C_KJD0LKZJ4ptl2x-mcv0mAXEBfD1DRpRAVc1AknaEkNFU6NG4TPyCzNiU2_-WeIwjiGr9hG5us2zWg8FLQS-UjGtJigxHiEwns6QDnWYgscmWJsl5bHtUc/s320/IMG_2188.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">This is us</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> <span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br /><p><br /></p>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-86770852629254766312023-05-17T14:48:00.002-04:002023-05-17T17:07:36.850-04:00Mourning the living <br /><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirwclodN28az02-FzPKNXjB6kBRKNhUKTOYZPSe71GouIXzm5nKbamHg17moFs0Tj4-jXQQigJr6vGYdunQzEWFkCkWtQjjtfnJ7mTCLwsrakp-V4ZGmWhwW1ipq2jZirFaq9wRxygj93OiA-Ze4jVhBD1Voiv8HDkhSRy_a7kGYc5LDFeLnPPZzpq/s4032/3B6D5A3D-E22A-44FF-BB7C-5F97E0980174.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirwclodN28az02-FzPKNXjB6kBRKNhUKTOYZPSe71GouIXzm5nKbamHg17moFs0Tj4-jXQQigJr6vGYdunQzEWFkCkWtQjjtfnJ7mTCLwsrakp-V4ZGmWhwW1ipq2jZirFaq9wRxygj93OiA-Ze4jVhBD1Voiv8HDkhSRy_a7kGYc5LDFeLnPPZzpq/s320/3B6D5A3D-E22A-44FF-BB7C-5F97E0980174.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br />Will I ever smile again and mean it? Will the world ever be right side up? How do people just move about in it, it’s as if they don’t know or care? It’s so strange? It’s odd to be the only one suffering. It’s even odder to think that I am. <o:p></o:p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">I can’t believe time keeps moving. Games, dances, parties, as if there are things to celebrate! Children are so easily going into adulthood and college and jobs, how, how, how! Was it too much just to ask for the laughter and the smiles and the easy disposition? Of course it was, it’s always too much to ask. As if I deserved it to be easier or manageable. I now must live in the undeliverable, in the unknown, in the abyss. There’s no where to go. There’s no up anymore, nothing tangible to hold onto. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">Is this the bottom? I can’t sink any lower. I must sit here and know this. The awfulness of grieving the living. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">Yesterday, yesterday, yesterday. It wasn’t perfect, but it was doable. I could do it. Today, all of the sudden, doable feels like catching the wind. Will this fear ever subside? Can the new normal spare me this sorrow; I’d take his pain, but it’s not possible. I’d absorb him into me and carry it, I’d do anything for his suffering to cease, even ease. How can I make it so? How can we know the unknown, how can we move forward? <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">Was this how it was going to go all along? No warning, no sign, just the disappearance of a young man, locked even farther into himself, his very person stolen. I sleep only by the grace of alcohol induced blackness, but when that fails I am awakened by the nightmare of roaming room to room, searching for him, but never ever finding him. Or worse, seeing him on the floor seizing, barely breathing, even with tools that I have accumulated from another epileptic child that are of no use, that are of no help, and so I can just watch in agonizing despair as my child suffers. And it plays over and over in a mind that is already depleted. </p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">I miss the son I’ve never had a conversation with but knew like my own reflection in the mirror. Now the mirror is a hole, deep and dark and there’s nothing staring back. How did it break? I long for the silly laughter, arm around the shoulder, long walks, a predictably uncertain future. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">I didn’t get to check all the boxes and help build a nineteen year-old that the world accepts or even tolerates, but to me he was perfect in every way that really matters. Where did he go, how do I find him, heal him? <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">Whomever described having a child is like having your heart living outside your body, must’ve had a child with needs that are vast, because my heart in all of its shattered pieces lives somewhere else and I can’t find the broom to sweep it up and tape it back together. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">I used to be the person that counted my blessings, knew it could be worse, was grateful everyday. That worse case scenario keeps a grip on my chest that feels so tight my heart couldn’t live inside me anymore even if it tried. I am no longer the mom I was trying to become, and I wouldn’t recognize her if she came knocking. She seems silly to me now, someone who was reckless in her faith, silly in her hope, ridiculous in her joy. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">A fool. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;">This is not a cry for help, for there are no more tears to be shed. This is acceptance, resignation and description of a boy’s life seized and a family changed. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></p>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-44613126463472358802020-09-30T20:19:00.003-04:002020-09-30T20:19:58.944-04:00The worst<p>I guess I am just surprised that we are surprised? Are we really? A rude, belligerent, narcissistic, shell of a man is going to be on a national stage and do something respectable, tolerable, relatable-even coherent? </p><p>Has he ever? </p><p>Would he ever?</p><p>Is he capable?</p><p>Who do we think this man is?</p><p>Why would we ever put faith in a person that has not shown a shred of human decency in the short, albeit, torturous time he has been President? ((not to mention his lifetime of cheating, fraud, racism, sexism (all the isms) and manipulation))</p><p>I am struggling. I cannot help but ask myself what kind of person would support this man? I know it is not fair, I know it is wrong. I should not judge. But how???? </p><p>How do we try and and raise humble, respectful, honorable children in the wake of this? Of course it starts at home, so how does one explain him to their children? What does one say about the soulless to their sensitive, impressionable sons? And heaven forbid, what does one say to their strong, ever-questioning daughters?</p><p>Damn, he makes it so difficult not to throw things, question everything you thought you knew and believed in. He is that vile. He is that repugnant. </p><p>Unlike our current President, I have reason, empathy, compassion, a thought process. And I used to believe that people that supported him did too, that maybe they voted for party or misguided principle rather than on facts. Yes, I know they believe me naive, and I cannot reconcile that they can't see what I so clearly do. Yet, I understand reluctantly, they see me the exactly the same way. I so heartbreakingly understand that many think I am the one who just doesn't "get it". </p><p> Disheartening.</p><p>And then it hit me last night that this is more about us than it is him.....so I ask, where will you stand in history? What story will you tell?</p><p>I just cannot grasp the possibility that he would be reelected, but I couldn't have imagined he would be elected in the first place. Here we are. </p><p>What does one do with this rage? I guess I will do the only thing I can do. </p><p>Vote.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-w1mJd8o7ViE/X3UdRkDU4gI/AAAAAAAAtNc/4qfxjKd015kmIIexurcyLoDvo-qOnJM-ACLcBGAsYHQ/s821/IMG-1422%2B%25281%2529.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="815" data-original-width="821" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-w1mJd8o7ViE/X3UdRkDU4gI/AAAAAAAAtNc/4qfxjKd015kmIIexurcyLoDvo-qOnJM-ACLcBGAsYHQ/s320/IMG-1422%2B%25281%2529.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-69911412338385829612020-04-12T08:06:00.000-04:002020-04-12T08:06:51.451-04:00Hope<b><span style="text-align: left; font-size: large;"><img src="https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1d6jRmi3cgIwbhahiLdPIgeAbYYzfxabQ" alt="https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1d6jRmi3cgIwbhahiLdPIgeAbYYzfxabQ" style="font-size: 12pt; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; max-height: 80%; max-width: 80%; height: auto; width: auto;"></span><span style="text-align: left; font-size: large;">A couple of years ago, my former pastor and friend, Terry Webster, asked if I would contribute to his sermon, from a mother's perspective. He was gracious enough to share it in it's entirety. I am sharing it with you because I believe hope, faith and love hold true-then, now, and forever. Happy Easter! He is risen indeed. </span></b><br>
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begun.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all of these years, I have
a lot of things tucked away that need to be dealt with. One of the things I
have discovered is that after all these years, I only have 4 sermons that I have
saved. I know that is a bit of a disappointment for everyone who were really
looking forward to me putting them into a book that you could buy in a few
months. Sorry about that. One of these sermons was the very first one I ever
preached, which surprisingly is really bad. A second one was part of a series
that was used when a previous church built a new facility. The third was the
Sunday after September 11, 2001 and the 4<sup>th</sup>?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, you get to hear it today. It is one
that is really special because part of it was written by one of our folks here
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was that they ate together’.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So begins
Rachel Held Evans words on communion in her book ‘Searching for Sunday.’ It is
an amazing book about her journey on loving, leaving, and finding Church.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These words aren’t too surprising because for
the early Christians because the life of Jesus-his death and resurrection,
changed everything in their lives, so men and women, slave and free, rich and
poor, Jew and Gentile gathered to eat.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 24.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt;">The story of the resurrection is amazing, so amazing that
apparently Mark couldn’t find the words to describe it. This morning we hear
Marks gospel story, the original 8 verses he wrote to tell about what happened
on that Sunday morning. As we heard Mary Claire read these words, the main
thing you may have <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>noticed is that
Mark’s story just sort of ends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Really,
it’s not a great ending. I can understand the urge to fix it-the rest of the
verses in chapter 16 were added later by well meaning people hoping to sync it
up a bit more with the other gospels, maybe to give it more of a victorious
feel. And I can understand why these extra words were added. Because while Mark
starts out in the usual fashion, its early Sunday morning, it’s still dark, the
women are going to the tomb to tend to Jesus’ body, the stone is rolled away,
they hear the word that Jesus has been raised, they are sent back to tell-Mark
seems to botch the ending completely with his last words…’so they went out and
fled the tomb, for terror and amazement has seized them, and they said nothing
to anyone, for they were afraid.’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do you
see what I mean? It’s the only resurrection story in the Bible where Jesus
never actually makes an appearance. And then these women disciples fail at what
the young man tells them to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is
all pretty surprising. They have been told not to be afraid—words that the
Biblical code words for ‘good news is coming’—but it doesn’t happen for them.
All they do is run off and hide, afraid, fleeing the tomb and saying absolutely
nothing to anyone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And there you have
it, a resurrection story scene without Jesus that seems to end in failure.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 24.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt;">So what is going on with Mark? To be honest, I thought for
the longest time that he just wasn’t very good with endings. But the more I
read this, the more I realize the genius and beauty of what Mark is up to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead of leaving the gospel story where it
is, Mark does something really remarkable—he lets us wonder. He lets us think.
He lets us finish the story. Mark writes this very open ended gospel that seems
to end in failure precisely to place the burden of responsibility for telling
the good news squarely on our shoulders. Mark isn’t terrible at endings, it
turns out-Mark is rather brilliant, and by telling the gospel this way, Mark
invites us-the disciples, the early church, you and me-into the story, to pick
up where the story left off and to tell the good news of Jesus.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 24.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt;">So that got me thinking. What can we do, what can you and I
do to continue what Mark started? What did these women do?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What did the disciples do? And for some
reason, my mind stated wondering to a couple of things…Mary, the mother of Jesus,
and a family wedding.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, I sought out
an expert-one of our moms- Mary Claire Brass. You may not know that along with
being a great mom, Mary Claire is also an amazing blogger.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 24.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt;">Now, no one could ever fully grasp what Mary went
through—seeing her son go through all of the horror she witnessed. What did she
do?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I asked Mary Claire to put
herself—as a mom—and see all of this through her eyes, through the eyes of
Jesus’ mother.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And her words are “A
Mothers Hope”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 26.0pt;">She lay in
deafening silence. Her heart was empty, broken. Her mind raced-the thoughts
came without warning. He was bad, wrong, evil. He didn't deserve to be here in
the first place, he's wasn't good enough. These were the words of others, but
they were infiltrating her brain as if they were her own. She shook her head to
rid herself of the doubt. It had been months, but the uncertainty still crept
in.<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 26.0pt;">What she knew,
what she reached for was what he meant to her. But not just her-what he meant
to countless others-those he touched, those he came close to, those he loved
without condition, those he healed, those who believed. Her will started to
come back and she lifted herself to her knees.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was still too much. The sobs came like a flood and she let them come
so she could release the doubt, the fear. She embraced the condemnation of
others so she could then send it away, it wasn't hers to keep. She decided
right then she would love like he loved, forgive like he forgave, stand like he
stood-with the weak, the poor, the broken, the sick. All as one, all as equal.
How could she start?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How could she heal?
She reached deep within her soul or what she felt was left of it and decided
bringing people together would be the only way. For the people who loved,
doubted, even hated Him to come to eat and drink surrounded by his spirit,
brought together by love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Love would be
the only way for so many to sit down as one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She hadn't sunk so deep that she had forgotten that love was the only
thing that outlives us all, the only thing that really mattered.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And so she decided, people would come
together for communion to remember and celebrate his sacrifice. His life for
each of theirs-his life, his death, and ultimately his resurrection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And in this decision she was able to stand
and raise her arms wide open to allow herself to be filled back up again.
Filled with all of the things that her son was to her-belief, honor, love,
forgiveness. She would replace grief with determination. Determined he'd
be remembered through her eyes, through her actions, through his meal. Who she
knew him to be. Her heart became full. For once again when she was totally
lost, she was able to pick herself back up and open her heart. And she became
filled with something she thought she had lost when she lost him. She was
filled with hope. <o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">‘For the people who loved, doubted,
even hated Jesus to come together and eat and drink surrounded by His spirit
brought together by love’<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">Pretty amazing, isn’t it. To bring
people together around a table because God knows what can happen, what will
happen, when we break bread together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And this brings me to a wedding. A few years ago, Marsha and I headed
off to Austin Texas for the wedding of my nephew Stephen to Elisabeth. Most of
us hadn’t met her, but were really looking forward to this opportunity, not
only to meet her, but also to join together in this celebration of the covenant
of marriage. And it was great to meet Elisabeth, and how do I describe her.
Well, there is lot about her that some might not appreciate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She is a lovely young woman, wild red hair,
body art, multiple piercings, wildly liberal, divorced, wants nothing to do
with God, and worse of all, a huge fan of the University of Texas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But she loves my nephew, and love overlooks a
lot, doesn’t it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, after the wedding
in the park that they wanted, we all gathered for a reception at a combined
yoga studio/art museum, one of their favorite places.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">And as we gathered around this table,
there was this family, my family. There is one sister in law, a widow, the
grooms mother, who is a self ordained Pentecostal minister who uses her
religion to hurt others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My brother, who
isn’t sure what he believes about God anymore as he has watched his wife
struggle in her 10<sup>th</sup> year of dealing with cancer that has nearly
bankrupted them. Sadly and strangely, it is the same cancer that hit the
Webster house up here in Kentucky. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Over
in the corner is a nephew, who is still struggling with the effects of some
poor decisions he made a few years back-decisions that have changed his life
forever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There was my sister and her
husband and their 3 kids, who still miss and grieve the death of their oldest
daughter Sara many years ago when she was 15. And there was my oldest sister,
who pretty much embodies everything good and holy, but who wasn’t able to marry
her partner because of the state she lives in.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">The Webster clan is an opinionated,
loud, stubborn, arguing group of people. But here we were, with all of our
flaws, and our needs, and our struggles, adding one more chair around the
dinner table, welcoming one more person to the family.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">And as I was sitting there, breaking
bread with my family, I started to see the real power of the words that Mary
Claire wrote, and what the resurrection and the table are all about.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is in the midst of the brokenness, our
disunity, our wounds, and our joys and love, that God brought Jesus back. Like
those women, we don’t really understand what happened on that Sunday morning,
we might never fully understand, we might even run away, but we gather to
remember, to celebrate, to break bread, to pull up some more chairs and allow
more people to be welcomes to God’s table.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">Easter is a celebration for the
broken, for the questioning, for the doubting, for the scared, for those who
want to run away and for those who are certain, who have no questions, who have
it all together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that is the way
that you and I can finish the story that Mark started. We open our arms, we
pull up another chair, we welcome those we love, and those we don’t, and we
share in this amazing gift of resurrection and of the table.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">As Rachel Evans writes, ‘the gospel
doesn’t need a coalition devoted to keeping the wrong people out. It needs a
family of sinners, saved by grace, committed to tearing down walls, throwing
open doors, and shouting ‘Welcome! There is bread! There is wine! Come eat with
us and talk!’ This isn’t a kingdom for the worthy, it is a kingdom for the
hungry. As we live in this Easter moment, we are the church speaking the word
of God saying ‘I’m throwing a banquet, all those mismatched, messed up people
are invited. Come and eat!’<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hmm. It is
just like a family pulling an extra seat at the wedding banquet.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 24.0pt;">Friends, Easter is a celebration of
the feast of God. It is God welcoming us to the table. When Jesus wanted to
explain what his death and resurrection was all about, he didn’t give a theory.
He didn’t give his followers a set of scriptural texts. He just gave them a
meal around a table. Today we join together to discover Jesus as we sit around
the table and break bread, here at this table, and also as you sit at table
with your family or with friends every day.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<br>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-24188440416669109072019-03-19T00:30:00.000-04:002019-03-21T18:18:48.428-04:00When Meetings at school for IEPs, ARCs, behavior, blah are pretty much status quo around here. You get used to it. So going into the transitions meeting for John last week, I was fine-no big deal. Then it hit me, about halfway through-oh no, high school. It was like a tsunami in my gut. He can't go to <i>high school. </i>Its so big there and the kids are big, and they laugh with and at each other, and talk and joke around and go to Physics and they're so <i>big</i>. And he doesn't do those things, and he never has so how can he go to high school? But, that's how its been at every school, right? Yes, except Physics. But the other schools have pictures on the walls, and sensory rooms, and lots of colors, and bean bags! I know, I am completely ridiculous. <div>
Will he be ok, probably. Will he adjust, hopefully. Will he learn in safe and loving environment, definitely. Will he care about any of the things that are making me crazy, I'm sure not. But I will. And there is nothing I can do.</div>
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font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your tears </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When the world moves on</span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your right here </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When the boys play their games </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your friend </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When you jump</span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your ground</span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When the anxiousness fills you </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your break </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When the music stops</span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your song </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">When their eyes divert their gaze </span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px;">I’ll be your contact</span><br style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; font-stretch: 100%; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: 19.99px; overflow: visible;" /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13.33px; 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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-89763026864096288862018-09-12T20:24:00.000-04:002019-03-12T10:21:43.238-04:00Dear Brain<br />
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I am peace.<br />
Worry overwhelms me, anxiety overtakes me, life exhausts me.<br />
I have gratitude.<br />
I am broken longing to be whole.<br />
I have love.<br />
I am alone. I know to be kind to the one and only body I have.<br />
I make poor decisions trying to destroy it.<br />
I have the best of friends.<br />
I can be hateful.<br />
I am a forgiving soul.<br />
I gossip and have guilt.<br />
I am working to be more authentically myself.<br />
I hide who I truly am.<br />
I want the very best for my kids and for them to be happy.<br />
I chipped away at their soul just yesterday.<br />
I read trying to get better, be better, know better to do better.<br />
I wasted hours binge watching violence.<br />
I have joy.<br />
I am filled with rage.<br />
I am inspired.<br />
Life is exhausting.<br />
Social media makes me feel connected.<br />
Twitter causes me rage.<br />
I wrote down my goals.<br />
I haven't made a move on any of them in years.<br />
I am forever grateful for this amazing life.<br />
Why is this happening to me?<br />
I am confident.<br />
What in the world is my purpose?<br />
I am self aware.<br />
Everyone is against me.<br />
I laugh everyday.<br />
Crying is easier.<br />
I live an abundant life.<br />
Why is there never enough?<br />
I am faithful.<br />
Doubt consumes me.<br />
I am honest and caring.<br />
Fear and resentment overshadow my decisions.<br />
I am just like you.<br />
You have no idea what my life it like.<br />
I have empathy.<br />
What is wrong with those people?<br />
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How can I be all of these people locked inside this grey spongy thing? Why can't I just be the best version, instead of sinking to the lowest common denominator? What is it that makes this self sabotage possible? Brain, I need your help. I need you to get on board with what my higher potential is. I need you to get out of my way. I will not surrender to your neurosis. My spirit will win.<br />
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I am human<br />
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<br />Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-60740699993748137382018-08-13T18:33:00.000-04:002018-08-14T10:11:49.181-04:00Here we go.....<div style="color: #454545; font-family: ".SF UI Text"; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal;">
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-35618318205920495292018-03-13T05:30:00.000-04:002018-09-12T11:45:24.804-04:00ElizabethOh my gosh, I remember. These days a lot of my former life is a blur. Life, it passes in an instant. It's true what they say. The days are so long. The years so short. But, the day you were born. I remember it. I remember knowing. Knowing you were not ok, feeling that burden of a future unknown. Yet, the love was so crazy strong, so overwhelming. That love would carry me, us, to the next step- to the future-to whatever it was, whatever it will be. I held you, my third and last child and in all of your smallness; I felt the weight of your enormous spirit. I felt your will to breathe, to eat, to smile, to flourish. Your mightiness gave me an unquenchable thirst to get up, keep getting up. I have you to thank. To thank for countless tears, too many sleepless nights, unimaginable grief. I have you to thank for perseverance only a mother can know, strength only a mother can muster, love only a mother can feel. I don't even know what this day will bring, every day I cannot control. But I remember holding you in my arms and knowing that we would brave it together. My daughter you have taken so much from me and for that I am grateful because you have given me infinitely more. You took my fear, you took my uncertainty, you took my weakness and you turned into an unbreakable bond. I want you to forever know, I am grateful for all you have taken because the gift of your presence and of your strength-these are things I couldn't have mustered alone. I was not whole before you. Thank you for breaking me into a million pieces and thank you my sweet girl, for putting me back together again.<br />
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<br />Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-80779489581915608992016-11-15T12:15:00.000-05:002016-11-15T12:15:26.847-05:00Nothing has changedDear Jacob, <br />
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Everyone is writing letters post-election, so I thought I would jump on the bandwagon, or maybe I just like bands, or doing what everyone else is doing, who knows-but I am your mother so you will read this. <br />
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First off and most importantly, nothing changes. In this house, we teach love, patience, and respect. We practice it some of the time too. ;) In all seriousness, though, what happened last week, does not change this. This is who we are, who we have always been. We must match our actions with our words and I know it starts with your father and me. <br />
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Let me tell you what I mean by that. You know that look your dad gives you when you so much as look at me sideways or worse, talk sarcastically or negatively to me? Yeah, you know. That doesn't change. Your father and I have built a relationship and family based on mutual respect, love, and trust and I understand you may question if our high regard for one another is the norm, considering the President-elect's behavior towards women, but it is real and it started when we took our vows. It strengthened when we were blessed with you, and when Johnny and Elizabeth arrived in all of their wonderfulness, it became unbreakable. He loves me and respects me (and I him) and I hope and pray he has taught you to do the same-not just me, but your grandmothers, your aunts, your cousins, future girlfriends-all women. So, nothing changes. <br />
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On that note, and this is going to be awkward, when you are in the inevitable situation of being with a girl and she shows any sign of fear, second-guessing, back tracking, you <b>back off</b>. You must be the guy who doesn't push, doesn't take advantage, doesn't take what isn't his. Please, be the man who knows better and does better. Please, be like your father. <br />
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I know what guys and girls talk about. I am not naïve. I, myself, have engaged in conversations and language of which I am not proud. Words matter, and I am sorry.<br />
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And while we are on the subject of women, YES, I emphatically admit I wanted a female President. But not any female. I wanted her. Why? Because while I went about living my life, she fought tirelessly for women, families, children with disabilities, equal pay, equal rights.....oh my. I just expected she'd keep fighting that fight. I feel overwhelmed by the prospect that now I am alone in that fight. I understand rationally, that this is not true, but it doesn't make me feel less afraid.<br />
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As you know, I <i>never</i> expected the outcome of the election or I would've talked to you more about all of the awfulness (and my opinion about it) on both sides. I was going to be as one blogger put it, "a gracious winner". But, that doesn't matter because nothing changes. We still love and respect people that voted differently than we did. They are our friends and our family. Their perspective and their experiences are different, but no less important. To say otherwise would be hypocritical. (Deep sigh) </div>
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-90357260467139674932016-10-19T18:25:00.002-04:002016-10-26T10:30:28.313-04:00I imagineI imagine you as a girl. A devoted daughter, a peace keeper, a rule follower with a bit of a wild streak. A young lady who loved to play with friends and probably a little boy crazy too. Singing silly cheers (the forest city colts are going mighty far!), but loyal to the cause, always supporting the team. As a young woman, I imagine a bright, confident person-but not too, of course. I imagine you were someone who was willing to take the risk and go out on her own to college-falling in love and then ultimately, doing what was expected, and going back home-but still pushing the envelope by staying away in KY just a tad longer. I imagine you quickly meeting friends that would last a lifetime. There were good times and good friends that will always be there. Those years probably passed quickly and marriage came shortly after college as it did for so many. At the time it was just considered normal to follow your husband's job and make a life where the work was. So I imagine you bravely moving far away to start a new life with new people and fitting right in with volunteer work, bridge, and fun times in a new city. And, of course, beginning a family and making a home. I imagine it was difficult after working to build a life to make another move and then a transition came that would bring you back to the old Fort. I imagine that that was handled with patience and fortitude to make a foundation for your family and the poise needed to move to a new city where "everyone knows everyone". I'd imagine there wasn't wasting any time in getting acclimated to the social scene and involvement in church. No one would guess you weren't from here, you know everyone's maiden name! <br />
Life probably, I'd imagine, threw you some twist and turns that you couldn't have expected even with two sisters. Having three girls would be hard enough-but us.... one more stubborn than the previous, all knowing exactly their place and their worth in the world. I remember the message, "you can be whatever you want to be." I imagine you shake your head because sometimes our viewpoints appear to be so different from your own. But remember even if our perspective is different, you should feel proud that we think independently, thoughtfully and from experience.<br />
Know that you were present, you were stable, you were hope, and above all else, you were love. And those things still hold true today.<br />
When we were a little bit older it may have been time to take a breath, but you went back to school and started a new chapter with a new degree and a new career path- wading your way through a different world than when you left it, but navigating it brilliantly and effortlessly. I imagine it probably wasn't that way, but you made it look like it was. There was always dinner at 6:30 (how did you do that?), a ride to wherever, and stuff just got done. I imagine a woman who valiantly fought for her family and made the decision that she would chart the course of her own destiny. <br />
I imagine you probably didn't think of it this way, but you weren't going to be defined by your past or your children or a job title. You became a pillar of strength. I can't imagine losing a mother, a sister and a best friend. These tragedies could be life defining, curl up, put the curtains over the windows, give in to grief moments-but they never broke you. Your resiliency-astonishing, your strength-admirable. I imagine it made your resolve stronger in building bonds with other women in church and reconnecting with old friends.<br />
I imagine this decade will bring, as life does, other things that can't be predicted or planned but it won't keep you from being your authentic self. A woman to be revered and respected. A mother, a grandmother, a wife, a mentor, a friend.<br />
I imagine it would have appeared that we may not have been paying attention to your wants and needs, so focused on ourselves and what we wanted from life. But we were paying attention to your strength, grace, your kindness and compassion, your willingness to help others, and always, your politeness and generosity to all. Because frankly you are "it" for us. Our everything, Our Mother. <br />
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-80551602554040877192016-08-17T16:02:00.000-04:002016-08-17T20:37:42.506-04:00SeizedNever have I ever. And there aren't a lot of firsts around here. We've seen and been through a ton of stuff. Much I'd like to forget, some, like today, I, unfortunately, never will.<br>
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So, I am totally pumped about the first day of school. What mom isn't? (Well, maybe teachers, but we've already established they are a special breed, of which I cannot even begin to understand) Johnny and Elizabeth are pumped too, of course, they are as tired of me as I am of them. So we are up early, getting everyone ready and Elizabeth is in her usual sweet good mood (at least first thing). But as we are headed down the stairs, she makes an awful gesture and her arm violently starts shaking, she crumbles to the ground, and the look on her face-I cannot tell you. It was the look of horror. It actually looked like her brain was under attack (which I know is exactly what was happening) and her face wore the image of what that must have felt like. Sheer terror. She has seizures almost everyday, but this has been a really good summer and we have seen very few and they are small and pass quickly, they are not minutes of shaking violently on her part and absolute panic on ours. Yes, they are still incredibly upsetting, but nothing, I mean nothing like what we witnessed this morning. I am truly baffled and so sad. Adam was heart sick and very close to being stomach sick as well, if you know what I mean. (barf city) But, after a few minutes when she came out of it, she was a little shaky (pardon the pun-oh, stop, I am allowed a little humor!), But miraculously, after about 1/2 hour of laying limp on me; she popped right up and was her old bossy self. She wanted to eat and sing and play. She smiled and got her color back. It was surreal. I wondered: does she have a headache, is she super tired, does she understand or even remember what happened, did she lose any learned behaviors, is she in pain, how in the world did she just manage to come out of that? I don't think I will ever get the image of her face out of my head.<br>
But, I will tell you this-I have <i><b>never</b></i> witnessed such resiliency. What a lesson. I have been boo hooing about how "hard" summer is for me because, well, because of her :/. (and her darling brothers, of course) But, what she has in her small ten year-old frame is still what I am seeking in my own self. The ability to keep fighting, never give up, don't let yourself get defeated. Or even if you are, and I was, exhausted, out numbered, a mess-don't let it get to you. I, once again, felt too beaten down and I lost my sense of humor, my patience and it felt like my mind. I know better than to start down this path. I have a lot of people coming in and out, I have a ton of help but I cannot seem to stay on top of the emotional roller coaster and flat out resentment right before school starts. Towards whom? Anyone who comes into my vengeful path, unfortunately. But mostly Adam, let's be honest! <br>Thankfully I have a new day ahead so I'll start fresh and be grateful, put on my best face and undoubtedly pray for a safe and happy school year for my dear girl- hugging her tight enough so some of her bravery will inevitably rub off onto me.<br>
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<br>Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-87901871423830672072016-08-01T19:40:00.000-04:002016-08-01T20:07:51.202-04:00Sorry, it is.Sorry, it is about politics, but maybe not how you might think-so please, read on.<br>
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I have to ask: when was the last time you read a political post and thought something awful about the person that said/shared it if it was a differing opinion than your own? I know, like 10 seconds ago. Me too, and I tired of it. These ridiculous negative thoughts that are barraging my brain when I read these posts are about and from real people, my supposed "friends" on Facebook. Of course, I could block or unfriend, but who wants a feed that is all the same views and opinions as your own? Admit it or not, we all like to peek at what the "other side" is talking about. And that is perfectly normal. What has gotten out of hand is the name calling,and hateful spewing of awfulness. I know-<i><b>newsflash</b></i>. But we are still engaging. And, unfortunately, I am not talking about the candidates. We need to realize we WILL NOT change someone's opinion or mind on FB about Hillary or Donald. That ship has sailed. And seriously do we really think that those that may be undecided are going to be swayed by the lunatic (there I go) who spews rage and hatred and calls those that don't agree with them uninformed, stupid, or moronic? And that is the nice name calling. Again, I am <i>not</i> talking about the candidates here and it happening on both sides. We are acting like toddlers that say, "mom, mom, mom, mom and when she won't respond, because she might be going to the bathroom (the nerve), talking on the phone (the audacity), working (NO!) so the little angels leave a gallon of ice cream under the bed, an open liter of Coke sideways on the steps, a full box of cereal strewn about the living room (Just my house? Oh well, you get the point.) <br>
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And to what end? How can we expect more from our candidates and in turn ourselves when we are just as guilty of acting like spoiled children? The only obvious difference-the people in my above example ARE spoiled children. My own.......<br>
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Can we not take a moment and step back and think about from where people's posts and points of view are coming?<br>
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Their perspective.<br>
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Just as I cannot form an opinion from the perspective of any American mother whose lost a child in senseless gunfire, a parent grieving a mentally ill child who took others' lives, a single mom working so hard for her children and never getting ahead, an immigrant with a family trying build a life in America, any parent who has lost a child to war, a business owner struggling to keep their head above water, those with children that are suffering from devastating illnesses, a military veteran struggling with PTSD-I cannot relate and form a political view from their perspective just as they cannot form one from a mother of two special needs kids (unless of course, they have two special needs kids, but you get my point). What I can do is <i>try and understand and empathize </i>why they may have to come support the candidate they have instead of figuring they are just an idiot who needs to be "informed".<br>
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I understand we are passionate about our wonderful country and her future. We all want a safe America where our kids can get the best possible education. We all want our police officers to be protected and feel safe and not questioned when protecting us. We all want our military to feel appreciated and honored and have all the support and opportunities available after they have served. We all want color, religion and gender to go unseen and opportunities to be for all. We all feel that opiate and heroin addiction are stealing lives at an alarming rate and more must be done. We all want healthcare for the poor and sick. We ALL want radical terrorists from home and abroad destroyed.<br>
And we should never give up on these dreams and goals, no matter what.<br>
Yes, we have different ways of getting there, but how does name calling and hate help the cause that we all want? How can we expect something from our candidates (and our children for that matter) that we are unwilling to display ourselves? Clearly, we need to step up and be the example.<br>
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Next time I read a post that is so sick it makes me sick, I am going to take a huge breath and think thoughts of gratitude and love. I am going to put goodness into the FB universe instead of rage. I won't respond because no attention should be called to it. (ignore it, see toddler example). I will think respectfully of their opinion even if I respectfully disagree. I will not engage in hateful banter and I will mind my mind. I will choose to rise above it because that is who I am or at the very least who I am striving to be. I am going to gain some perspective.<br>
It's not a definitive solution, but it's a start.<br>
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Which we both forgot<br />
Because we are #busy (everyone is, I deplore this word)<br />
I just wanted you to know that I am committed. And this could mean a couple of different things. First and most probable it means I fell apart. It happened-there just wasn't enough energy, positivity, self help-books or even enough wine to get through. So, I gave up. I gave in. Please put me in a padded room for an infinite amount of time. I cannot lie-a room with just a bed and my own thoughts and no one else-for maybe just a bit? Well that sounds eerily scary and spectacular.<br />
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But that's not the case. Turns out, I am somewhat sane and there is plenty of wine. The committed meaning I am referring to is about being with the same man for over 17 years and sticking with it. (married 15 of those years-every minute counts!) Sticking with the good, the bad, and the ugly, the awful, the terrible. </div>
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Have you ever considered the dual meaning? Committed and (insert daunting music).....<i>Committed</i>.</div>
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Seriously, though, I am committed to you. I love you. Happy Anniversary!</div>
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-42800306965708450822015-12-09T21:26:00.001-05:002015-12-10T13:18:04.274-05:00And you?<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div>
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And this is a funny one for me because (see above and previous posts) much of what I write is drenched in-maybe wine sweat-probably in sarcasm. So I don't always come across as the eternal optimist, but rather the consummate worrier. Case in point- last night, waiting for my 11 year-old to take my spot in bed at 4 am, I started to do that thing where every single thing in your life becomes uber important. From forgetting paper towels at Target to the list of questions for the Neurologist you never wrote down to the forever of caring for these kids and how, how, how and who, who, who and the always, how much, much much? </div>
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-60961573822365958262015-04-21T16:19:00.001-04:002015-04-22T10:35:19.835-04:00Look at HerI have a little exercise I want to try and I hope you will join me. Sit or stand in front of a mirror and read this post on your smart phone or computer.<br>
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Look at her with compassion not animosity<br>
Look at with her love not indifference<br>
Look at her with trust not skepticism<br>
Look at her with empathy not criticism<br>
Look at her with acceptance not judgment<br>
Look at her with confidence not doubt<br>
Look at her with humanity not cruelty<br>
Look at her with kindness not contempt<br>
Look at her with gratitude not obligation<br>
Look at her with respect not envy<br>
Look at her with pride not shame<br>
Look at her as capable not broken<br>
Look at her as strong not shattered<br>
Look at her as graceful not clumsy<br>
Look at her as good not inept<br>
Look at her as full not hollow<br>
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Look at her as everything she is and is striving to be.<br>
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Now, look at her (you).<br>
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If we can do these things while looking at ourselves, maybe we can begin to do them when we look at others.<br>
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So I shared this post a few days ago on FB from Humans of New York and now I feel anxious and weird about it. First I should know better than to share a post if my heart is racing or I've had too much wine, can't remember at this point which was the case. Anyway, I wish I hadn't shared it, not because I haven't felt <i><b>exactly</b></i> the way this father has, but because, I felt like I was shaming other parents for the way they feel. Its hard to explain but I will try. All of my friends have "typical" children, seriously you probably couldn't find even a speech impediment in the lot of them. So, of course, they worry about "typical" children things, ie walking by 15 months, potty training, test scores, sports teams, etc. And these are all things I worry/worried about with Jacob so I totally get it. I think what resonated with me is the anger that sometimes builds up if someone goes on and on about a seemingly ridiculous worry (pooping on the toilet or site words) and I am baffled. Listen people, if anyone needs to worry about kids pooping on the toilet, it's this girl. And I should be over it, how many years have I had disabled kids? But I still get all fired up inside. Again, that's what parents with typical kids worry about, so move on Mary (sorry, that was me talking to myself). But a son being gay worry is different. Maybe the couple was worried about how their son would be treated or ostracized or left out if he were gay. Maybe they worried he wouldn't be able to marry or have a family or do what most of us take for granted if he were gay. I hope those were their concerns rather than just the thought of him being gay, and since I don't know, I want to give them the benefit of the doubt. Because I feel the above concerns are legitimate and because at the end of the day we all want our children to be accepted. And, <i>news flash,</i> our society has not accepted homosexuality yet. Hopefully by the time our children are grown (or by tomorrow), being gay will be a non-issue and no one will even blink an eye and love will be love and that will be that.<br />
I am not sure if this even made sense, but I needed to write it and now it is done. No more heart racing and no wine because it's morning. <br />
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<br />Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-74375462684954403892015-04-05T18:12:00.000-04:002015-04-07T13:16:46.381-04:00 A Mother's HopeRecently I was shocked and humbled when my minister asked me to write something for Easter Sunday (imagine!). We talked through some ideas and scripture he was planning on using for the service. I didn't tell anyone (even Adam) that I wrote something in case it was terrible and he didn't use it (still working on confidence issues). Anyway, he did use it (thanks Terry :)) I hope the congregation felt what I was feeling when I wrote it. Feeling thankful on this Easter Sunday.<br />
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lay in deafening silence. Her heart was empty, broken. Her mind
raced-the thoughts came without warning. He was bad, wrong, evil. He
didn't deserve to be here in the first place, he's wasn't good
enough. These were the words of others, but they were infiltrating
her brain as if they were her own. She shook her head to rid herself
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she knew, what she reached for was what he meant to her. But not just
her-what he meant to countless others-those he touched, those he came
close to, those he loved without condition, those he healed, those
who believed. Her will started to come back and she lifted herself to
her knees. It was still too much. The sobs came like a flood and she
let them come so she could release the doubt, the fear. She embraced
the condemnation of others so she could then send it away, it wasn't
hers to keep. She decided right then she would love like he loved,
forgive like he forgave, stand like he stood-with the weak, the poor,
the broken, the sick. All as one, all as equal. How could she start?
How could she heal? She reached deep within her soul or what she felt
was left of it and decided bringing people together would be the only
way. For the people who loved, doubted, even hated Him to come to eat
and drink surrounded by his spirit, brought together by love. Love
would be the only way for so many to sit down as one. She hadn't
sunk so deep that she had forgotten that love was the only thing that
outlives us all, the only thing that really mattered. And so she
decided, people would come together for communion to remember and
celebrate his sacrifice. His life for each of theirs-his life, his
death, and ultimately his resurrection. And in this decision she was
able to stand and raise her arms wide open to allow herself to be
filled back up again. Filled with all of the things that her son was
to her-belief, honor, love, forgiveness. She would replace
grief with determination. Determined he'd be remembered through her
eyes. Who she knew him to be. Her heart became full. For once again
when she was totally lost, she was able to pick herself back up and
open her heart. And she became filled with something she thought she
had lost when she lost him. She was filled with hope. </span></span></span><br />
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-32570875508909633652015-03-26T18:23:00.000-04:002015-03-26T18:23:08.333-04:00Don't be sad!!!I am not kidding. No part of this blog should make you sad-about me or my kids! We are "fine"! Don't you love that word? Fine. Fine means nothing. It is a dumb word. So let's replace it with crazed, stressed, out of our minds -those seem about right. But even then we really are-fine. Better than fine most days. Worse others-just like everyone else. Where is this coming from-well my mom is super worried that I am not "happy". After every blog she comes over with that worried "mom look". She is afraid that things get too hard, that things are too overwhelming, that I will run away from home (that would actually be a possibility, but it seems like too much work). And if in reading this, sometimes you are worried too, please don't. It's supposed to be funny and make you, the reader, take a minute to reflect on your own life, it's complications, ups and downs, and know that somebody else is going through <i>something</i>. We all are! Mine is not better or worse than yours, we all have <i>stuff. </i>So don't be sad! Really, I'm <i>fine 😉!</i><br />
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And if that moment arrives, as it always does-that I realize that I <i>get </i>to have these moments-because I am alive and capable and healthy. And that I need to embrace these moments. Not because they are fleeting, because in my world they are likely forever. But because I <i>can </i>experience them. It shouldn't be that one of my dearest friend's sister is lying in a hospital bed fighting for her life to force me to get to the point where I appreciate what I have right now, today. I want to have a grateful heart all the time. (Add that to the long list of to-dos). Deep sigh and breath. </div>
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Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-65124253393374164162014-08-26T23:09:00.000-04:002014-08-27T09:00:35.682-04:00My Heart's SongSo definitely one of the scariest or maybe most worrisome things about raising a child/children (in my case) with special needs is if they really<i> </i>understand what you are trying to communicate to them. How or are they processing information and how much? What are they thinking about? What if something happens to them or someone hurts them and they can't tell me? What do they love, what do they hate, what bothers them, what delights them? As a mother, am I frustrated or distracted too much? What more do they need? How or where do I start? Who needs what more? Off the subject but equally as heartwrenching, do they know how much I love them? Do I tell them or show them enough? Certainly you want them to reciprocate that love, but you can't always get what you want! These questions plague my middle of the night thoughts. But then, as with everything in life, there are glimmers of hope that sneak up on me all the time. A few weeks ago Johnny was singing in the back seat with his IPAD and I immediately recognized the songs. I used to sing the Dixie Chicks song "Lullaby" years ago when the kids were babies/toddlers before they went to bed. I love all things Dixie Chicks, but especially this song, and it sounds like he was listening!<br />
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Ok, so he has to do a couple other Dixie Chicks songs to warm up, <i>and</i> he picks his nose and bangs his head with his fish, <i>and</i> I can't focus on his face because if he sees me videoing he immediately stops singing, <i>and </i>he tries to open the door when the car is moving-oh whatever, I hope it makes you smile :)<br />
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"Lullaby" lyrics that he is singing at the end of the video:<br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">They didn't have you where I come from</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Never knew the best was yet to come</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Life began when I saw your face</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">And I hear your laugh like a serenade</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">How long do you want to be loved</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Is forever enough, is forever enough</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">How long do you want to be loved</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Is forever enough</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Cause I'm never, never giving you up</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">I slip in bed when you're asleep</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">To hold you close and feel your breath on me</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">Tomorrow there'll be so much to do</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ccccdd; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you</span><br />
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<br />Mary Claire Brasshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13682108767263904911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5945821330616811680.post-91054007583831514422014-07-24T23:17:00.000-04:002014-07-25T07:25:00.381-04:00It is she<div>
Elizabeth had an MRI last week and it was an incredibly long day. She has areas in her brain that need to be monitored because they have always been"abnormal" or "diseased". We have to make sure those areas do not grow. She came out of it sick and weak and looking at me as if to ask, "why would you let them do that to me-again!?" However, even coming out of sedation, her bright personality shone through. I am in constant awe of her strength. These were my thoughts as I watched her drift off and go in for her scan. </div>
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<b>She is determined</b><br>
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<b>She is strong </b></div>
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<b>She is attitude</b></div>
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<b>She is kind</b></div>
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<b>She is willful</b></div>
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<b>She is bright</b></div>
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<b>She is silly </b></div>
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<b>She is sweet</b></div>
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<b>She is bold</b></div>
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<b>She is brave</b></div>
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<b>She is vulnerable</b></div>
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<b>She is warm</b></div>
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<b>She is mine</b></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><b>She is Elizabeth. </b></span></div>
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<div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Side note-In case you were wondering, and maybe you weren't, but my posts have been super short for two reasons 1.) my brain is mush in the summertime 2.) my computer is still broken!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Anyway, I hope to be back with more content soon :)! But for now it appears I can only write in adjectives! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Stay tuned though, we had a no pants extravaganza at Rossford Park I have to tell you about, that will no doubt make you feel like a better parent!</span></div>
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